updated
01 · Philosophy I keep returning to

Mind.

  • Why people suffer
  • Whether meaning is discovered or invented
  • The line between good and evil
  • What makes a life worthwhile
  • Why some relationships survive and others don't
  • How much of personality is choice
  • Why we tell stories
  • What attention is
  • Where taste comes from
  • What curiosity itself is
02 · Directors I rewatch on principle

Cinema.

  • Stanley Kubrick
  • David Lynch
  • Studio Ghibli
  • Beautiful failures
  • Films that trust the audience

Every film and show I have rated →

03 · Paintings & prose I live inside

Art.

  • Northern Romantic painting
  • Caspar David Friedrich
  • Johan Christian Dahl
  • John Atkinson Grimshaw
  • Ivan Aivazovsky
  • Moonlit landscapes
  • Shakespearean tragedy
  • Ballet, especially Swan Lake
  • Ruins reclaimed by nature
  • Lonely figures in vast landscapes
  • Storms at sea
  • Melancholy without despair

What's on the shelf →

04 · Listening rooms in my head

Music.

  • Classical, all of it
  • Tchaikovsky, for Swan Lake
  • Chopin's nocturnes
  • Progressive metal
  • Britpop
  • Garage rock revival
  • Moody Americana
  • The tuning note before the first note

What I am listening to lately →

05 · A dark, tailored world

Style.

  • Oversized English trousers
  • Crisp dress shirts
  • Waistcoats
  • Tall coats & capes
  • Eyes Wide Shut masks
  • Glasses, always
  • Artistic rings shaped like animals
  • Silver necklaces
  • Silver lapel pins & cufflinks
  • Pocket watches
  • Victorian-patterned ties
  • Fedora hats
  • Textured leather belts
  • Wooden-soled leather shoes
  • Long boots
  • Raincoats
  • A proper black umbrella
06 · How a room should feel

Space.

  • Cozy, small, lived-in rooms
  • Patterned wallpaper
  • Warm yellow light
  • Victorian & Greek detailing
  • A real fireplace
  • Dark wooden doors
  • Archways instead of corners
  • Dark wood interiors
  • Worn leather
  • Indoor plants, everywhere
  • Paintings on every wall
  • Dead flowers in a vase
  • Patterned carpets
  • A big TV, sofa pulled close
  • A bed too big for the room
  • Candles & lanterns
  • Detailed spoons & utensils
  • A coffee corner
  • A shoe-shine corner
  • Windows onto trees & train tracks
  • Fallen leaves indoors
  • Easter eggs scattered through the room
  • Hand-painted appliances — fridge, TV, the lot
  • Floor-to-ceiling bookshelves
  • Wall-sized mirrors in the dressing room
  • A big mirrored bathroom
  • An oversized shower head
  • Rain against windows
07 · Rooms I don't own

Places.

  • Libraries
  • Bookshops with ladders
  • Museum halls near closing
  • Grand old cinemas
  • Old train stations
  • Hotel bars at midnight
08 · Foods that are worth the effort

Food.

  • Pancakes, flawless and faintly divine
  • Quzi, slow-cooked
  • Yalanji
  • Steak, rested
  • Risotto, done right
  • Penne arrabiata
  • Rocket (arugula) salad
  • Sushi
  • Sunflower seeds, by the bag
09 · What ends up in the glass

Drink.

  • Cocktails, more or less all of them
  • Sex on the Beach, ordered without irony
  • Jägermeister, very cold
  • Beer, very cold
  • Iced V60
  • Peach iced tea
  • Black tea
10 · Engines worth the silence after

Road.

  • Porsche 911 Turbo S
  • Aston Martin DB11
  • Ferrari 488 Pista
  • Manual gearboxes
  • Night drives, windows down
  • Empty highways at 3am
11 · Travel, weather, slight danger

Wander.

  • Rain & thunderstorms
  • Solo travel, big cities
  • Nocturnal urban exploration
  • Secret European alleys
  • Arboreal retreats, off-map
  • Deep mountain hikes where no one has been
12 · A Greek-god frame, and tolerance for pain

Body.

  • Inhuman training volumes
  • Endurance past the point of reason
  • Strength as a default state
  • Sitting in discomfort, on purpose
  • Cold water, on purpose
  • Breathing exercises
  • Stretching & mobility
  • Balance
  • Long walks as thinking
  • Meditation
  • Sleep, defended
13 · The software taste behind the day job

Craft.

  • Total control over my stack
  • Linux, always
  • Suckless philosophy
  • Software you can leave alone
  • Programs that start instantly
  • Plain text, forever
  • Go, Rust, Svelte
  • Self-hosted everything
  • IBM Plex, everywhere
  • Sorting files and data like a maniac
I am worthy because I am curious, not because I am clever.
a note to self